indebtedness
Wednesday, September 27, 2006the love that you have blown my way
has always been a cool breeze
an added glitter to my bleak world
never has there been another person
keen on making me happy
so much for drama
for now i know that the love you have for me
on times like the ones i have right now,
respect, love and understanding is your key
be brave, for God always has plans for
each and every one of us
in time, you will realize
not that i am saying life is a box of chocolates
give time.
to be in this deteriorated world
has always been a struggle
even though we try so hard to survive
rest assure, evil will always lurk around us.
being with you brings a smile to my portal.
thank you sunlight! 
late night trips and random thoughts
april 05.06 late night trips has always been a thrill for me. dont ask me why. the roar of the machine against the blaring speakers, the sounds of yesteryear against your ears. your co rider? you’ll never know what goes on inside its head. and yet, i keep a world of my own. lost in my own thoughts of what lies ahead the journey.
“love will keep us alive…that’s what love is for”
going north, with the wind blowing through my hair. a shabby shanty, echoes the cry of hungry children, yet happy. a couple awaits their fortune. happy yet not just. reminds me of a particular song from the eagles and amy grant. the look on their eyes says “now i’ve found you, there’s no more emptiness inside. when we’re hungry, love will keep us alive.” or “sometimes we make it harder than it is. we’ll take a perfect night, and fill it up with words we don’t mean. dark sides best unseen, and we wonder why we’re feeling this way.”
the aroma of it all
wandering through the marche aux puces, i see slaughtered meat. on the other side, amongst the blinking lights. bargaining of souls. for a mere disease, you get to do what you want with the “meat”, flowers that they sell on the other hand makes you think of someone who gave you one of those common ones. should i ask after 10 years? only a memory from a scrapbook has the answer.
love doesn’t hide. it stays and fights. it goes the distance, that’s why love is so strong. so it can carry you all the way home.
on the final leg of the trip. a question still lingers. tears on hold. as the song played on the radio. it says:
maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows. and maybe our hearts will find their way, only heaven knows. and all i can do, is hope and pray, ’cause heaven knows.
why i live in despair, cause wide awake or dreaming. i know he’s never there. and all the time i act so brave, i’m shaking inside. why does it hurt me so ??
how i wish i have the control to stop the music.
siren’s wail
a burst of alarm from the distance. people in distress awaits their destiny. waiting for relief to extinguish their burning abode. i wonder, when will my pain be extinguished? i wish the fireman has the answer.
the chosen one
as i walk along the dark corners of the peter hill. two paths ahead of me. one is to go home and rest my tired soul, or write on the graffiti wall. it led me here. (more…)
matters of the heart
Many sleepless nights are spent
Over buckets of tears
Missing you was the hardest part of all the comforts
Many are enjoying
Yes, there’s a price to pay for all these
I asked, is it worth it?
Living in a square box with your folks
Only waiting for my freedom to come
Verbal abuse to swallow, physical blow to catch
Excuses to make
Yet in the end
Only you can help..
Unconditional love you have for me…
thank you for everything…
lost in confusion
i have never met a person whose greatest need was anything other than real, unconditional love. you can find it in a simple act of kindness toward someone who needs help. there is no mistaking love, you feel it in your heart. it is the common fiber of life, the flame of that heats our soul, energizes our spirit and supplies passion to our lives. it is our connection to God and to each other. to fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult. our human loneliness is cause enough, but it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be.
the most wonderful of all things in life, i believe, is the discovery of another human being with whom one’s relationship has a glowing depth, beauty, and joy as the years increase. this inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing, it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. it is a sort of Divine accident. love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it’s what you are expected to give — which is everything, stupid isn’t it?
can there be a love which does not make demands on its object? einstein said that gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love (hahahaha!) but nothing beats charlie brown for his best quote on love - nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.
“love, if one has to put a gun on my head for me to define it, is a prayer made not to be heard by mortals who encapsulate love merely as a marriage contract, a promise, a person, a status quo, a song, an inspiration, a bible verse and others that attempt to define what it is. love is the reason why we are here.. love is also a purpose why we need to be here tomorrow. love is God’s work of art, it is you.” [totie]
“love is a feeling that everyone (sige na nga, most) would like to experience because it is said to be the most wonderful feeling in the world. to love someone means not to see beyond the imperfections, but to acknowledge these and help the other person to grow. to grow and not to change the other person as love accepts what was, what is and what will be. love is not about ultimate sacrifices, rather meeting halfway and making compromises. it is not temporal but something that will last for a lifetime, even beyond time. in short, love is CRAP, hehe joke. basta, love is something very hard to define, for no words can do it justice because it is felt. what can be described are its manifestations which varies from person to person. therefore, love is both abstract and subjective. sa akin, love is a need; a need to be with someone. a need that has to be satisfied because your happiness lies in that person. it is not something that goes away because love is forever. it is love when you stop making excuses for the other’s shortcomings just because you don’t give a damn. it is love when you stop trying to give an explanation for loving someone because you know that the person is reason enough for you to feel love. and simply because there is no one particular reason. you just know that at the end of the day, there is no one you would rather be with than that person. ” [mids]
“love sucks. bakit pa kasi naimbento yang hayop na love na yan! love sucks pero in love ako kay Audrey Tautou.” [mark yuri]
“love…uhmmmm…wla ako maisip!” [erika]
“love is something you cant fully understand, but can be completely felt, cheers” [mikerapphone]
“love? hirap naman nyan!” [red]
best love story ever
just when i thought that the whole world is against me, one of my favorite apo, just came poppin out of nowhere and told me:
eli: kapag daw, di pa dumadating yung right person, it means God is still busy writing the BEST love story, ikaw ang gaganap bilang bida sa istorya Nya
the saddest thing is loving someone
in the world
who used to love you
at times i thought life is cruel. but then again, you gotta hurt in order to know. fall in order to grow. lose in order to gain. because most of life’s lessons are learned because of pain.
boundless…
Monday, September 25, 2006in this turbulent world we live in..
waiting is a test of patience..
anything out of mundane
numbs us..
threatens to break us in two..
time is crucial..
overtime kills..
run.. run..
until i ran out of breath..
never will i be able to walk again..
awash with tears..
will you even care, i ask..
alas, your heart says “no”..
yes..i would rather move along..
just around the corner…
finally i get to see "the lake house” (a remake of the korean movie siworae)..though, i don’t have plans of watching the movie. . the first time i saw the trailer i thought, "ahh looks really familiar to me!". .makes me think that i might either end up crying or lose my bearing over the movie. .
yes, i am a very melodramatic person. .but, watching it with someone makes it all worthwhile *wink* (more…)
a soulful relationship…
Wednesday, September 20, 2006got an email from a very good friend of mine, which she got from her ex’s blog:
SOULFUL RELATIONSHIP
By Rev. Ronald McFadden
If you’re not married yet, share this with a friend. If you are married, share it with your spouse or other married couples and reflect on it.
An African proverb states, “Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye.”
Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don’t let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem, make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don’t fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren’t really important. (more…)
