if only. . .

i am sick of watching love stories (pero nanood pa rin ako di ba?!) or maybe i am just bitter..i was watching IF ONLY and it was one hell of a tear-jerker movie..arggghh! lahat na ng pwedeng tumulo, tumulo talaga! …naubos tissue ko..

IF ONLY  is beautiful, funny. .it's sad, it makes you want to hold your head in your hands and cry your heart out (which i did, really!)…superb acting from Paul Nicholls and Jennifer Love Hewitt (fave namin ni mids!), who incidentally were having a relationship when this film was being shot - it shows!!..

..it's nice if you were given a second chance in life..to live..to love once more…there is this one person who gave me more than a second chance in loving..i really love him for letting me had several tries in our relationship..pero sabi nga niya ".. meron hangganan lang ang pagiintindi ko .. dahil i have to worry about my own situation.."…true..true…

i texted mids and erika last night..and told them i don't want to be in a situation wherein we have to work our ass off and put the relationship on hold..ayokong maging isang imaginary girlfriend in the end..anyhow..all i want is someone who asks me "hi.. how was your day? ".."are you still alive?"…"share ka naman dyan!"…or .."leche mahal kita!"…it's never too late to let someone know you care or you love them..are you gonna wait til that person die or is lost forever out of your sight?

…mababaw lang ako…a simple offline message, short email, kahit blank text, or missed call..gumugulong na ko sa tuwa…nyaaa pampam!. .but there are some people who "systemize" their lives..astroboy..sometimes..people just don't get it..loosen up once in a while..dont bite..

i miss the feeling of *sigh*…i am not being dreamy..but, in a way..it is okay to be dreamy..it is the start of reality…agree?…tama na senti..nakataas na kilay ng mga apo ko..

it would be nice if someone tells you "i've loved you from the first time i met you..if not for you, i never would've known how it feels to love and be loved in return..doesn't matter if you have 5 minutes or 50 years to live.." (dream on trish!)

they say that in a relationship, there's somebody who love more..oh God i hope it isn't me…

it isn't anything you probably haven't seen before, but it works like a charm this time…

. . .

today, today I bet my life 
  you have no idea, what I feel inside
   don't be afraid to let it show 

    i love you, you love me 
  take this gift and don't ask why
'cause if you will let me
     i'll take what scares you. .hold it deep inside
   and if you ask me why 
 i'm with you and why i'll never leave
     love will show you everything 

  one day, when youth is just a memory 
i know you'll be standing right next to me
  my love will show you everything
our love will show us everything. .